Love/Hate Sensation

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 18:52:39 GMT

new journal: alldayhold
thanks armenda my love!!!! <3

ADD IT, YA'LL HAVE BEEN ADDED, OR ELSE!

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 08:32:08 GMT

al pacino is great
goodbye sundayafter.

new eljay coming soon. i know, i know, i need to stop moving around. im just never satisfied.

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 05:54:32 GMT

in 24 hours, i may not be on livejournal anymore. i loathe it. give me one really good reason to stay. otherwise, im moving my online journal somewhere cooler. and i'll tell ya'll where i'm at so you can stalk me. that is, if i leave!

Sun, 04 Jan 2004 20:15:40 GMT

dude, i hate livejournal. i might be giving up soon. fuck you livejournal.com!!!!!

Mon, 29 Dec 2003 18:03:06 GMT

still, 211 hugs in my userinfo. hopefully everyone had a wonderful christmas. i've been playing with my new 35mm camera. expect pictures soon.

i work new years 2-7 and new years day 2-7. blah. so i was invited to 4 parties. i'm going to one.

oh, and jimmy and i .... yeah, we might be getting back together. ut oh.

tonight i'm working 4 to 10 and then taking my little ones home. yay xchin and nickolass.

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 00:43:51 GMT

211 HUGS AND MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Sat, 20 Dec 2003 19:22:41 GMT

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Fri, 19 Dec 2003 17:08:22 GMT

last night was a horrible night. everything was fine when i got home from work, and then everything got really really really really bad. :\

Fri, 19 Dec 2003 03:21:31 GMT

GIVE ME HUGS (CHECK MY USERINFO)

okay, so i offically want to just run off to some place and never ever return to vineland, more specifically, the mall.

MY CAR IS ALL BETTER. YAY!
no more stalling out from mcdonalds. yeah buddy.

dont make me get my knife.

Sun, 14 Dec 2003 18:05:52 GMT

kevn, come with me to philly. it's cheap and junk and fun. better than new jersey!!!!

COME WITH ME YOU SILLY GOOSE.

p.s. i am actually dead. i died last night. really, i'm dead.

okay, so i'm not. stfu.

I MISS YOU KAH-ATE...............!
I MISS NOT WORKING LONG DAYS.
I MISS BEING ABLE TO SLEEP AS LATE AS I DID TODAY.
I MISS BEING ABLE TO TAKE MONEY FROM MY MOM.
I WILL MISS PAYCHECKS AFTER I MOVE TO PHILLY.
I WILL MISS MY CAR WHEN I MOVE TO PHILLY.
I WILL MISS MY FRIENDS, BUT HELLO, PHILLY.

yes, im moving to philly. :D

Tue, 09 Dec 2003 23:13:09 GMT

I WANT YOU TO HIT ME AS HARD AS YOU CAN!
(not really)
but fer real im like, tired and junk.

Mon, 08 Dec 2003 23:08:38 GMT

THUG ATTACK PART THREE: IAN SCARES THE KID.

ScrewtapeDiaries: hey there
MartyMar7000: hey waz up
ScrewtapeDiaries: not much, boo
ScrewtapeDiaries: i was just checkin' out some of modblog
ScrewtapeDiaries: and you are cyooooooot
ScrewtapeDiaries: you dont mind if i bother you, do ya?
MartyMar7000: na not at all
ScrewtapeDiaries: asl?
MartyMar7000: 19-m-nj
ScrewtapeDiaries: nj? that's crazy what part?
MartyMar7000: west new york n' u
ScrewtapeDiaries: im from cliffside park
MartyMar7000: ohh aightz
MartyMar7000: u close then right?
ScrewtapeDiaries: eh, depends on your perspective. i'm not a big fan of cars or anything because im claustraphobic
ScrewtapeDiaries: so walking and stuff is my forte
ScrewtapeDiaries: i dont venture very far outta da park
MartyMar7000: ohh aigthz
MartyMar7000: so wha u look like girl
MartyMar7000: u got a pic?
ScrewtapeDiaries: i gotz one laying around, h/o
MartyMar7000: aightz
ScrewtapeDiaries: http://www.facethejury.com/profile.asp?user_name=eviandrinker
ScrewtapeDiaries: so what do you do for fun, huh babe?
MartyMar7000: a lot of things mention some n' i'll tell yaz
ScrewtapeDiaries: oooh, very coy lol
ScrewtapeDiaries: you like drugs at all?
MartyMar7000: well i don't do em' lol
ScrewtapeDiaries: not even xtc?
ScrewtapeDiaries: im way all up in that shit
ScrewtapeDiaries: how big is your penis, btw?
MartyMar7000: lol
MartyMar7000: well i really don't know cause i don't b measurin' dat everyday but u can imagine lol
MartyMar7000: i'm just messin' wit cha
MartyMar7000: yo my boy is askin' if yaz got any friendz
ScrewtapeDiaries: oh plenty
MartyMar7000: he'z sayin' if u got any picz of em'
ScrewtapeDiaries: nah
ScrewtapeDiaries: not of anythang g-rated lol
ScrewtapeDiaries: we're some kinky bitches lol
MartyMar7000: it don't matter
ScrewtapeDiaries: oh it does...
ScrewtapeDiaries: you'll wait and see...
MartyMar7000: n' why is dat
ScrewtapeDiaries: because, i dont want you seein' me naked and sheeit
MartyMar7000: just take ur self outta da pics
ScrewtapeDiaries: lol nah nah
ScrewtapeDiaries: maybe another day, you kinky
ScrewtapeDiaries: kinky boyz
MartyMar7000: lol
ScrewtapeDiaries: this one time i inserted a 2 liter bottle of coke in my butt lol
ScrewtapeDiaries: we take pics occasionally
ScrewtapeDiaries: for Vivid Video
ScrewtapeDiaries: you like porno?
MartyMar7000: aightz now he'z sayin' if u could describe some of ur friendz
MartyMar7000: yea it'z aightz i rather do stuff then watch though
ScrewtapeDiaries: what do you rather do?
ScrewtapeDiaries: are you kinky like that?
ScrewtapeDiaries: most of my friends are black or philipino like me'z
MartyMar7000: ohh aightz
MartyMar7000: are any of em' skinny cause he got a fetish for skinny people
ScrewtapeDiaries: one i guess
ScrewtapeDiaries: but the rest of us are fat assed bitches
MartyMar7000: lol aightz
ScrewtapeDiaries: you wanna cyber sweet thang?
ScrewtapeDiaries: if you do, i gotz this fantasy of being raped
ScrewtapeDiaries: you should be all up in that
MartyMar7000: u tryin' ta get me sexually fustrated girl?
ScrewtapeDiaries: naw lol
ScrewtapeDiaries: im so frustrated
MartyMar7000: aightz lol
ScrewtapeDiaries: i havent had it in weeks
ScrewtapeDiaries: since i did it on the bus stop
ScrewtapeDiaries: that was crazy
ScrewtapeDiaries: i was so drunk
ScrewtapeDiaries: i dunno who i fucked lol
MartyMar7000: damn it'z like dat
ScrewtapeDiaries: i know!
ScrewtapeDiaries: it itched for a few days, but my gyno says im clean
ScrewtapeDiaries: so it's all good
ScrewtapeDiaries: :-D
MartyMar7000: ohh aightz
ScrewtapeDiaries: yo, you should meet me sometime
ScrewtapeDiaries: i'll rock your werld
MartyMar7000: well we gonna have ta see bout dat
ScrewtapeDiaries: you know i like you alot
ScrewtapeDiaries: um
ScrewtapeDiaries: we should get married
MartyMar7000: now u jumpin da gun wit marrage girl lol
ScrewtapeDiaries: no im not
ScrewtapeDiaries: lotsa marriages started out like this
ScrewtapeDiaries: they werk out
ScrewtapeDiaries: come on
MartyMar7000: yea but i just met cha
ScrewtapeDiaries: so
ScrewtapeDiaries: ?
ScrewtapeDiaries: come on
ScrewtapeDiaries: it's only on paper
ScrewtapeDiaries: and i can fuck you like no one else
MartyMar7000: we gonna have ta see bout dat
ScrewtapeDiaries: meet me tomorrow
ScrewtapeDiaries: Washington Street McDonalds
ScrewtapeDiaries: you know where thatz is in cliffside?
ScrewtapeDiaries: we can go out back
ScrewtapeDiaries: i know people
ScrewtapeDiaries: they have a mattress by the dumpster
ScrewtapeDiaries: it's so good there
MartyMar7000: yea i know but i got work so dat ain't gonna work
ScrewtapeDiaries: next day?
ScrewtapeDiaries: sheit i gotta go
ScrewtapeDiaries: my girl needs oral sex
ScrewtapeDiaries: ttyl
ScrewtapeDiaries: :-D

Mon, 08 Dec 2003 22:22:29 GMT

ScrewtapeDiaries: little pitterpatter of children with lisa loeb glasses, photography majors, and beautiful singing voices with a criminal record,hair like Allen Iverson, and the vocabulary of the janitorial staff at the Burger King in South Bronx.

THUG ATTACK PART TWO: REVENGE!!!!!!!!!!!!1
AMBER TO THE RESCUE!

XooxBaBiGrLxooX: HeLLo SoN
MartyMar7000: hey waz up
MartyMar7000: who'z diz
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: MrS mIaGi
MartyMar7000: lol ok
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: YeS
MartyMar7000: na but seriously
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: Ok I aM nOt MrS mIaGi - My NaMe Is DaNieLLe YoU cAn CaLL mE dAnIeLLe SaN
MartyMar7000: so waz up danielle
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: NoThIn Is Up WhAt Is Up WiT u
MartyMar7000: here chillin'
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: NiCe AnD wHeRe Is HeRe?
MartyMar7000: bout ta grab sumthin' ta eat outta da kitchen
MartyMar7000: home
MartyMar7000: lol
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: WhErE iS hOmE
MartyMar7000: home is in west new york nj 54th n' bergenline
MartyMar7000: how bout u
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: home is where i place my hate
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: hat*
MartyMar7000: ohh aightz lol
MartyMar7000: n' where'z dat located at
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: in my parents home
MartyMar7000: lol aightz but wha i'm really tryin' ta ask is wha state wha city u know lol
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: oh oh i understand my friend
MartyMar7000: aihgtz
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: i dunno the name of my city
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: the state im not to sure of either
MartyMar7000: ohh really
MartyMar7000: so do u know how old u r
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: yes ive been locked in my parents home for 25 years
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: since i was 7
MartyMar7000: wow
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: i chill in their living room playing on their computer
MartyMar7000: ohh i c
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: yes
MartyMar7000: n' how did u get my sn do u know me?
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: total randomness my friend
MartyMar7000: ohh aightz
MartyMar7000: so how much do u know about me
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: yes yes
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: notihng really
MartyMar7000: ohh aightz so ur in for a surprise then
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: oh am i?
MartyMar7000: yes u r
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: whys that
MartyMar7000: if u meet me dat is
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: no i cant meet u - im not allowed to leave
MartyMar7000: cause i'm just MartyMar
MartyMar7000: ur not allowed ta leave ur house
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: no
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: my boyfriend/cousin comes here to chill
MartyMar7000: don't worry i'll sneek u out
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: no no no sneaking out
MartyMar7000: ohh aightz
MartyMar7000: so whaz ur outcome in our conversation
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: i dont have one
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: just random conversation
MartyMar7000: ohh aightz
MartyMar7000: u wanna get ta know me better is dat it
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: when i was little i was born with both reproductive parts
MartyMar7000: or i'm just here for ur entertainment
MartyMar7000: datz sexy
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: no not really
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: this was all just a game
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: i must be going
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: BYE
MartyMar7000: ok
MartyMar7000: if u say so
XooxBaBiGrLxooX: BYE SHLONG HEAD

THE END!

SUBMIT ALL THUG ATTACKS TO ELAINE, IF YOU SO WISH.

Mon, 08 Dec 2003 22:06:08 GMT

Seriously, where do these people find me?

THUG ATTACK!

MartyMar7000: hey sexy
Elaine Kills You: hi?
MartyMar7000: lol
MartyMar7000: guessin' u don't know who this is
Elaine Kills You: no :\
MartyMar7000: lol
MartyMar7000: it'z cool cause i don't know u either
Elaine Kills You: oh. where did you get my screen name then?
MartyMar7000: i got it from modblog i waz checkin' dat thing out cause my boy pushed me ta it n' then i came across u n' i waz like let hit diz girl up cause i saw ur pic n' i thought u waz cute
MartyMar7000: so here i am lol
Elaine Kills You: i havent been on there in forever.
Elaine Kills You: do you have one?
MartyMar7000: yea i got one
Elaine Kills You: link, please.
MartyMar7000: i haven't been on it like in yearz either lol
MartyMar7000: aightz just search me up on MartyMar7000
Elaine Kills You: heh, i don't think you're my type.
MartyMar7000: n' whyz dat
Elaine Kills You: not to be rude, but i'm in art school, it seems to me that you type ... rather ridiculous. i appreciate that you think i'm cute, but i doubt i should continue this conversation further.
MartyMar7000: a picture alone doesn't describe my whole deal u just lookin' outside the book dat haszn't been opened
MartyMar7000: describe ta me wha ur perfect guy would be
Elaine Kills You: hmmm.
Elaine Kills You: well, he would wake up with me to have coffee before the sun. he would understand that laying on cold linoleum floor is a part of life for me.
Elaine Kills You: mostly a lot of those little things.
MartyMar7000: well i don't drink coffee so datz a -2 points on my side but bout da linoleum floor i'm cool wit dat u do u as i do i
Elaine Kills You: uh huh.
MartyMar7000: ur into art right
MartyMar7000: open my eye'z into ur world
Elaine Kills You: yes i am. it's my life and how i make money.
MartyMar7000: n' i will wit mine
MartyMar7000: i like creative people
Elaine Kills You: well, i just recently started my own magazine for underground music and art. i;m going to art school in philadelphia -- working on my masters in photojournalism.
MartyMar7000: well i think now is a good time ta say dat ur not da only creative one cause i do a lil' poetry on my own
MartyMar7000: datz cool
MartyMar7000: i'm thinkin' of movin' down there ta work for paramount pictures
Elaine Kills You: writer or director?
MartyMar7000: fixin' up the stage but once i'm in i start meetin' da rightz people n' i'll probably hit it as a writer cause when i write stuff everyone including teachers alwayz tell me i got a talent in writing
MartyMar7000: so i might hit dat up
Elaine Kills You: very nice.
MartyMar7000: but ta tell u da truth i'm lookin' for dat one thing dat makes me whole cause i feel empty but i don't know wha i'm missin' u get me
MartyMar7000: maybe it'z a girl like u or maybe it'z just sumthin' i'm yet to experience
Elaine Kills You: thats how everyone feels.
Elaine Kills You: well, how old are you?
MartyMar7000: imma turn 20 in april
MartyMar7000: how bout u i kinda forgot
Elaine Kills You: 18
MartyMar7000: aightz
MartyMar7000: right down my alley
Elaine Kills You: and who says i'm down for that?
MartyMar7000: hey maybe u are u just don't know it yet
MartyMar7000: i'm all about livin' life to the extreme and for the moment because every second is a moment that flashes an eternity
MartyMar7000: so i know if i pass up on someone i think dat got sumthin' special "u" and i pass up on it i might not get a second chance
Elaine Kills You: i still don't think you're my type.
MartyMar7000: hey like they say u think u know but u got no idea
MartyMar7000: wha type a person u fall into like catagory raver thug or alternative add anything other if u wish
Elaine Kills You: i date quiet and shy boys who listen to the same music i do, read the same books, and enjoy the same movies.
Elaine Kills You: i dont know what i would consider you, but from first impression ... "thug" comes to mind.
MartyMar7000: well most say i'm shy but when i get ta know yaz i'm a lil' bit louder then usual and when i believe in somthing with all my heart i will fight for it til' the end i don't know if datz da type of response ur lookin' for but there it is
Elaine Kills You: and frankly, they scare me.
MartyMar7000: well let me point on first of all just cause i got cornrolls doesn't mean i'm a thug and why do they scare u
Elaine Kills You: because of where i live.
Elaine Kills You: and their music is just talentless.
Elaine Kills You: i don't see a meaning or any type of emotion wrapped around money and women.
MartyMar7000: i know i feel u it'z alwayz about killing and shooting it'z ridiculus
MartyMar7000: da only time i loved rap waz when 2pac waz alive and for the simple fact he had a true story ta tell he wanted ta chage the world end the hate etc.... then everything just fell
MartyMar7000: i know if he were alive a tear would drip his eye
MartyMar7000: but as far as music goes i listen ta everything
Elaine Kills You: even old school scares me.
MartyMar7000: n' why'z dat
Elaine Kills You: gangs and all the violence.
MartyMar7000: it might b that but the point for that music is it'z for the kid datz living a thug life for him ta see and find a way out
MartyMar7000: most of the stars u see today would probably b dead if it wazn't for rap
MartyMar7000: u know so u can't really hate it
Elaine Kills You: i still find no emotion in any of it. and music is nothing without emotion.
MartyMar7000: yea it'z true but if u listen ta da music of one of the greats there'z pleanty of emotion behind it talkin' about fatherz raping there mother then mom just turned ta crack etc...
MartyMar7000: u know u just gotta listen
Elaine Kills You: besides all of that, i really just don't care.
MartyMar7000: ohh aightz
MartyMar7000: so wha type of music u listen to
Elaine Kills You: hardcore, feminist electro, metal, folk, spoken word.
Elaine Kills You: all underground.
MartyMar7000: yea i like dat type of stuff too
Elaine Kills You: name some bands.
MartyMar7000: n' if i don't know some bandz or wha eva u can alwayz introduce them to me
MartyMar7000: i'm willin' ta give it a shot
Elaine Kills You: i don't believe i am.
Elaine Kills You: i'm just not interested.
Elaine Kills You: frankly, you talk like a 13 year old girl who likes goodcharlotte types to her friends.
Elaine Kills You: and that, is inane.
MartyMar7000: you know wha people say to me all the time

here's the clincher

MartyMar7000: they say yo martymar your too nice n' whyz dat n' i go nigga i can b the nicest guy u've ever met or the most ruthless

MartyMar7000: n' it'z true
MartyMar7000: people who've seen me know n' i don't like being ruthless
Elaine Kills You: i don't feel i need to continue this any further.
MartyMar7000: but if u think i'm a 13 year old girl who likes goodcharlotte types then i can respect ur opionion n' there ain't nothing i can do ta change ur mind all i'm leavin' u with is this dat once an opportunity passes by ur face don't miss it cause u will never get a second chance to relive it or make an impact so powerful dat al' strike down so hard dat'll shatter da most dominate windowz u look out of an into
MartyMar7000: n' datz it i guess it'z bye

THE END!

Sun, 07 Dec 2003 18:55:29 GMT

i have been hiding from livejournal for far too long. i am sorry.
it really does take over your life.

it's nearly christmas. i have started shopping for friends & family, but i cant bring myself to finish. gah.

KEVN, WHAT DOES THOU WANT FOR X-MAS?

recommend songs!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

i miss kah-ate :( i will leave her a voicemail!!

i'm getting a new camera for christmas :)

next thursday, i go for my interview at the art institute of philadelphia. to talk to the lady about going for my masters. 8 years of art school. AWESOME. so, basically, i'll be living in philly in less than a year. :D

that makes me happy.

Fri, 05 Dec 2003 22:09:33 GMT

i'm so worried. what's so great about the army?
gah. i dont want him to leave. i really dont.
it makes my stomach hurt. why am i so stupid?

they're going to send him overseas. and ill never see him again.
i just know it. i hate being right.

Thu, 04 Dec 2003 04:43:45 GMT

ComieZapr: ill be at the mall at 4:00ish
Elaine Kills You: right on.
ComieZapr: and i want cookies
Elaine Kills You: ill be at the cookie booth.
ComieZapr: oodls of cookies
Elaine Kills You: deal
ComieZapr: OODLES
ComieZapr: i want exactly 2 oodles
Elaine Kills You: which is how many total?
ComieZapr: its 2 oodles
ComieZapr: and an oodle is about 4
ComieZapr: i guess
Elaine Kills You: hahaha
ComieZapr: im not clear on how many noodles are in an oodle
ComieZapr: and how the cookie transfers into the oodle
Elaine Kills You: you're making no sense!
Elaine Kills You: very un-jimmy-like.

(he could be on drugs, especially now that he is a surfer .. goatee and shag hair too. oh god i bet he looks so much hotter now. SHUT UP ELAINE.)

GOODNIGHT.

P.S. COMMENTS OTHERWISE I MIGHT DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 (KEVN, YOU ARE A LOSER <3)

Thu, 04 Dec 2003 03:17:18 GMT

*sings to myself*

Today has been such a blah day. Work was fun. But whatever, I slept. And I feel bad. I was supposed to go to a movie with Ben, but I fell asleep instead. Maybe tomorrow.

Tomorrow, I'm going to the state park to finish up my portfolio for Saturday. WOO!

Tue, 02 Dec 2003 16:36:12 GMT

I'm so sore. It didn't hurt too too bad when I was getting my tattoo, but right now I feel like I'm going to fall over. And I have to work tonight. BAH.

I still cannot believe I got a tattoo.

Tue, 02 Dec 2003 03:10:38 GMT

And so I am now inked.

Olivia: I am a large! I HAVE BIG BOOBS.

Mon, 01 Dec 2003 03:24:20 GMT

1- im getting my first tattoo tomorrow.
2- why do i feel like i just gave up the best thing i ever had? (sappy lyrics, i'm lame)
3- im getting a new camera (YAY)
4- olivia is making me a shirt! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
5- after my tattoo, im going to relieve pain by taking pictures.
6- i dont know. YAY.

Sun, 30 Nov 2003 22:35:32 GMT

WHY AM I STILL KEVN-LESS? HM?!
and where is kah-ate?

and olivia is gonna make me a shirt and i will pay her. omfg. yay.

*dies*

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 03:45:36 GMT

SirCyg: hi

Elaine Kills You: happy dead bird.

SirCyg: lol

same i guess

Elaine Kills You: eh, turkey is overrated.

SirCyg: how r u

Elaine Kills You: doing well.

SirCyg: good

what was wrong last nighgt

Elaine Kills You: family stuff and having to stay in
the mall longer than i should have.

SirCyg: oh ok :-\

SirCyg: i need to tell u something

Elaine Kills You: okay?

SirCyg: im kindof upset that u r not giving us a chance
and u just want to be friends, i understand u still have
feelings for that other guy. but i care for u and i have more
then just friend feelings for u, so yeah. i think we can work
and be good togther, but, i dont know, is it me, is there a
reason why ur not attractted to me. be honest, i dont care
if it hurts

SirCyg: and i do t want tahtc rao that u only knew me for
a couple days, its the same with me, and i like u alot

SirCyg: and dont give me that crap i mean

SirCyg: i cant type, lol

Elaine Kills You: basically, i just met you. as you
know, i dont want to jump into anything. i never just
blew off a chance, i just said "not now". and because i
have many guy friends, all who could be worth dating.
i dont date any of them, but if they hold what i think
is really worth it. and frankly, it's kinda weird that
you already like me so so so much. my mind cant even
comprehend that.

SirCyg: ok fine, thats great u have alot of guys friends
that r worthy to date, but i dont want to be waiting in line
behind them, cause u knew them longer. so yeah, i have
no problem u having guys friends, but the fact is that i like
u moe then a friend and thats never going to change so it
would be hard for me.

Elaine Kills You: thats not what im saying at all.

Elaine Kills You: you make it out like all is down hill
from here. but it's not. i'm just saying, that right now,
i like going on dates and hanging out without the
pressure of being with them. i need to change me
before i go and get into a relationship. i am no where
near ready for one.

SirCyg: ok fine

SirCyg: but just how u said it, was like u just see me as
a friend and thats it

Elaine Kills You: not that even.

SirCyg: do u have attrCTION TO ME AT ALL

Elaine Kills You: i dont know!

Elaine Kills You: i hardly know you.

Elaine Kills You: which is my point

SirCyg: ok

SirCyg: fine

SirCyg: im sorry i sadi anything

Elaine Kills You: okay.

SirCyg: its stupid

SirCyg: i understand

SirCyg: u dont know me, but i told u my whole life in one
day

SirCyg: but its fine

Elaine Kills You: im not even talking about that

Elaine Kills You: im talking about idyocirincies.

SirCyg: idyocirincies. ?

Elaine Kills You: little things

SirCyg:

Elaine Kills You: little characteristics.

SirCyg: ok

SirCyg: well have u failed u yet, have i done anything u
dont like

SirCyg: tell me, be honest

Elaine Kills You: no, but it's always first impression
to make everything seem perfect.

Elaine Kills You: everyone has that.

Elaine Kills You: those little things dont come out
until later.

SirCyg: ok ?

SirCyg: well to be very honest with u, the way i was
around u is the way i always am

SirCyg: so there is no differnt

Elaine Kills You: its just how i am.

Elaine Kills You: i pick people apart

SirCyg: ok, fine

SirCyg: but im leaving u with this, i care so much for and
about you, ill will always be here for you, and you are
worth the wait. i just dont want to be another one of ur guy
friends that like you. i want you to atleast try with me,
cause i am make you happy, as much as i can.

SirCyg: and i still hope ur coming over this saturday ;)

Elaine Kills You: steve, you hardly know me.

Elaine Kills You: why do you feel this way?

Elaine Kills You: stop it.

SirCyg: stop what

SirCyg: what is there to stop

Elaine Kills You: stop trying to jump into something
with me. YOU HARDLY KNOW ME. it's creeping me out!

SirCyg: i cant stop liking yoiu

Elaine Kills You: but why do you like me so much?
you hardly know me.

SirCyg: if you cant take this , then im sorry, im just
speaking the truth about how i feel, im sorry :(

Elaine Kills You: i cant take it.

SirCyg: i know enough to know i want to try something
with you

Elaine Kills You: you're driving me more insane than
i already am.

SirCyg: u r not like any other girl

and i love that

SirCyg: ok fine

SirCyg: im sorry

Elaine Kills You: just take a chill.

SirCyg: ill let u be

Elaine Kills You: because you're freaking me out!

SirCyg: i am chill , i have a right to tell u how i feel, im
sorry

SirCyg: but fine

SirCyg: im sorry, i didnt mean to freak u out

SirCyg: im very sorry

READ THIS IF YOU WANNA READ A FUNNY/PATHETIC AIM THINGIE.

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 01:34:29 GMT

i am sitting here.
i left kah-ate tons of messages.
tracey and i got high.
she doesnt likelivejournal. no one does.

kevn should have stayed here, because he would enjoy this moment. but then he would have run into the wall.

BUAHAHA. READ THAT STORY AND MORE .... patty_duke

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 21:49:26 GMT

I drink too much coffee. I cleaned out all the trash that was in my car. around 36 or 37 coffee cups. all wawa and/or eleven east cups.